The other day I mentioned there would be some changes around here, and this is an important one. I need to end the no-posts-yet-today anxiety that exists when it's about half-past ten in the morning and I haven't put anything up here. It's the easiest thing in the world to sit around worrying, thinking that you haven't updated your website, whereas in reality I think people prefer quality to quantity and can get bombarded by too many posts - profligacy is certainly why a lot of people unfollow me on Twitter, for example, and I can understand that. That and the fact I can be tremendously annoying, of course, but that's beside the point for the purposes of this post.
I know... I know. I'm posting the first post of the day to post about the fact that I shouldn't just post any old rubbish up here as the first post of the day, simply to have a post up and to quell the fears of no-posts-today-yet anxiety. That in itself is fairly self-defeating, but I hope this post serves as an example of just how bad things can be when someone just tries to write something for the sake of writing something - anything - instead of waiting to write something that's actually any good. So I hope you can ignore this. This is just telling you that this won't happen any more. It's here to demonstrate what shouldn't happen, and therefore has to exist. There's no point me saying this halfway through the day, having already posted a couple of things, because that wouldn't really have the same impact, would it?
On the other hand, of course, some of us - and I include 'me' in that 'us', for fairly obvious reasons, including but not exclusively the fact it wouldn't be an 'us' unless it had 'me' in it - do feel the need to write as and when it feels necessary. Think of posts like this as blogdoodles. They're not particularly spectacular or insightful things, but they can be useful for creating a bit of momentum and energy into writing. At least I think so.
I think the reason a lot of us do write on here - 'here' being the internet rather than a shopping list, for example - is that there are things we need to get out, things that wouldn't otherwise present themselves in the course of our normal conversations, things that need to be said because they rattle around in your brain like a ballbearing in a bucket and create quite a racket until you condemn them to paper - or, rather, electronic characters, and then they're gone, and they're quietened down a bit, and things become a bit more normal again. That's my experience, and that's why I take to blogging so enthusiastically. It's those things you can't say in ordinary life, or which you can't really get out in a couple of sentences, the slightly more complicated thoughts which take a while and which would usually be interrupted by a telephone ringing, or someone telling you that you're talking garbage (which may or may not be the case) or just some other obstacle being put in the way.
Writers - even failed writers like me, or should I say less successful writers - are frustrated speakers, sometimes, people who would like to be able to say out loud the things that bounce around in their consciousness. So I hope you can forgive the self-indulgence of this. It's not going to happen all the time. But it might happen sometimes. If it does, we can push through and forget it ever happened - except for the fact it's logged down on the blog, but never mind that, just look at the good bits and forget the banality like this.
So, essentially, what I am saying is: No more just posting for the sake of posting. I'll only post when there's something interesting to say. Unless I feel like posting something that isn't interesting, in which case I just will, and we'll pretend it never happened. I think that makes everything clear.
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